Why Are They Even in These Jobs?

What I keep coming back to — what keeps nagging at me — is why these people are even in these roles. Why choose this work? Why go through the training, the study, the lectures about safeguarding and ethical responsibility? Why spend years learning how to support families and protect children, if you're going to turn your back when it actually matters?

I just don't understand how they do it.

How do they go home at the end of the day and feel okay about themselves? How do they convince themselves they're doing a good job when they've chosen silence over action — protection of their peers over protection of a child?

They weren't supposed to side with comfort. They weren't supposed to protect each other. They were supposed to protect the vulnerable.

Instead, they let us down, they let our daughter down.

And it leaves me wondering: is it just me who sees how wrong this is? Am I struggling to understand because I'm Autistic and things feel more black and white to me? Maybe. But even then — surely they know the difference between right and wrong? Surely they still have morals?

Because if they don't...what does that say about the system we're all meant to rely on?

They claim to care. They go into these professions claiming to want to make a difference. But when the moment comes to do the hard thing — the right thing — they disappear. They get defensive. They protect each other instead of the people who needed them most.

I just don't get it. And maybe I never will.